Today I am thankful:
1. To be at a more peaceful place in my life. Recently I was in on a conversation with another adult who is a preacher’s kid. He told me how he loves God, but experiences anxiety and sometimes panic when he goes to church. It was a blessing for me to hear this story because I have struggled with this for years. Growing up in a preacher’s household was very much like living in a glass house. One example: A lady who lived down the street from us when I was ten had a pair of binoculars in her upstairs window. If I read too late into the night, she would call my mother and report that I was up past my bedtime. Over the years I have struggled with the weight of real or imagined expectations of people, many of which are unrealistic. Then, something happened, almost imperceptibly this past year. One Sunday I was sitting in church and realized I felt wonderful. Today, I feel at peace. My husband and I have been blessed to be at a church that seeks the unique strengths, gifts, and passions of its members. I have found a place in the present moment to be authentic and accepted just as I am. I have also learned that I am not alone in what I have experienced. This is a common struggle for those in ministry. Deeply grateful that God never stops working on my heart.
3. Sleeping In. My DSH (dear sweet husband) took the kids out to breakfast this morning before school. I am so happy that my kids were able to have some special time with Jeff. And… I got to catch up on some zzzzz’s.
What are you thankful for today?